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You know how it is, you can remember something someone said and not who said it. You\u2019ve got a vague recollection of the orator, the context and the time it was said but no matter how hard you try you can\u2019t pin down who said something or when. Maybe you guys can help me here but if you can\u2019t, that\u2019s cool.<\/p>\n
I think it was a comedian who once said that when the creator defined sexuality he played a big joke on us all. He told us there were two sexes and one orientation. Heterosexual. But what he (or she) actually created was any number of sexualities and just told us that the only one that wasn\u2019t sinful was heterosexual.<\/p>\n
From quite an early age I was aware of homosexuality in men. We had a gay couple who my father used to do business with. With no sense of irony at all my father bought his entire collection of Abba LPs from them when they were moving house. Thinking about it now makes me chuckle.<\/p>\n
Later I became aware of women who like women and the intriguing phenomenon of the existence lesbians hoved into view. Wow. Competition for girls and from other girls.<\/p>\n
Then there was bisexuality and the possibilities that it presented. In fact as I progressed through my adolescence I became more and more aware of the possibilities that the apparently infinitely variable scope of human sexuality offered to me.<\/p>\n
I thought about it a lot. After all adolescent boys are programmed to think about sex every few minutes so that was hardly surprising. But what I think was unusual for a boy of my upbringing was that I though about the possibility of me being something other than heterosexual. I don\u2019t mean that most men haven\u2019t considered if they are straight or gay at some point in their life but I don\u2019t think most actually regard the possibility of being anything other than straight as a momentary lapse, a wavering of their utter conviction that they are totally \u201cnormal\u201d.<\/p>\n
The thing is I don\u2019t think about blokes in a directly sexual way. I never have but. But it\u2019s part of my personality that I always investigate possibilities, even in the hypothetical; I suppose it gives me the assurance that I\u2019ve at least considered all the possibilities.<\/p>\n
So, for me thinking through my sexuality and working out what made me tick wasn\u2019t some pivotal moment of teenage angst about whether or not I fitted in. It was at the same time both an intellectual exercise and an exploration of the possibilities open to me. I have to concede that at that time I wasn\u2019t so worldy wise and the infinite variety of sexuality that does exist was still a mystery to me.<\/p>\n
After all that, and even now, I find myself being boringly heterosexual. I\u2019m not even bi-curious. What a bummer eh? I have feminine characteristics and like to think that I can be sensitive but nope I don\u2019t fancy blokes. I\u2019ve been called gay at school, but that\u2019s because I didn\u2019t act like a mindless dolt and treat women like shit. In some ways I wish I did have non-conventional curiosities so I could investigate new sexual avenues, but I don\u2019t. And anyway that\u2019s probable a good thing because I\u2019m still discovering new aspects of sex with Suze and I don\u2019t think I could cope with much more. LOL<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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